Day 1

All I gotta say is I'm takin' one day at a time...one foot in front of the other...baby steps!!
Today:
30 mins exercise today...yeah, I could've done more, but my "mind" just wasn't in it!! Believe me, I tried, but I forced myself to do a minimum of 30 mins, and I burned about 200 calories. I started supplementing wiht Vitamind D3 today. I've been doin' a lot of research that shows VitD3 helps with bouts of depression in PCOS. Ugh!! Some days I don't even realize I feel down, but I'm tryin' my best to make a change so I can get back to my daily workouts and start losing this weight again!!

My thoughts;
Today was a slow day. I got to work this mornin' and I didn't wanna talk to anybody. I started to work while I was watchin' "House of Lies" on my cell. That helps make the day go by quicker. I told my friend Joel that I didn't wanna be bother today, and I just wanted to be to myself and not deal with any one else today! So, I'm prayin' the vitD3 will help, eventually, to shake these "blues" off and they'll help me get myself back on the right track to health and wellness!

I'm back..AGAIN!!

I've decided to start journaling again. At this point, I don't know where to start! I was supposed to restart my healthy journey on New Year's Day, but for some reason, in which I blame on my PCOS and hormone imbalance, I just can't seem to find my way again!! Each day has been a struggle for me to find energy to workout, or even to eat healthier. I'm so disappointed in how my body is treating me right now...or should I say, how I'm treating my body?!?! Ugh!! The bad thing is is that I started to do a workout this afternoon, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it...I started, but 5 mins later I said for get it and I ended up stopping. So now at 5:15pm I'm sitting here journaling and trying to make myself feel better.
Ultimately, I don't want to make promises to myself for, what I'm sure, won't last!! But I've gotta find some way to motivate myself again...but I think this is nothing by my hormones acting funky on me again.

My goals!!

1. a minimum 1hr exercise 6/d/wk
2. journal my food daily using MyFitnessPal and/or SparkPeople
3. 1 gallon of water/day (less if trail run/walk)
4. Choose and stick to a DailyBurn workout schedule
5. add vitamin D to my daily multivitamin
6. Begin C25k again.
7. NSV (non scale victories) once a month
8. $1/hr workout
9. Take classes at sportscenter 2-3 times a week including weekends
10. PRAYER!!!!!

Well, this is a start, and my goal is to shake off my feelings of "depression". I go thru these spells every now and then, but today, for some reason, is pretty, pretty bad! I feel like journaling will be a way for me to release stress and get myself back focused again!! I'll be talking about weight loss, fitness, and emotions. This will be my outlet, especially when I don't have anyone to talk to, I can use this blog (and possibly vlog at some point) to be a voice for myself and possibly for others.

So, let's do this!!!

Day 39 Clean...Day 11 LFT~~Legs/Calves Day!

Not much to share today...or maybe I'm just not in much of a sharing mood :( I'm a little frustrated because the scale is going up...and not down! Ugh.....!!! I'm trying my best not to get irritated, frustrated, pissed off, or mad...but it's kinda hard when I've been working so hard to stay clean and lift weights and follow the LFT plan and not divert from it! Anyway, other than the scale not budging right now, I'm ok! Today was a good leg day and I could've pushed myself a bit harder on the wide stance squats and leg curls, but I'm sure my legs will still be sore a bit tomorrow. 

I was looking at myself in the mirror at the gym today, and again, i don't see any progress....shoot, I don't even see it in my regular clothes ~X( And I know everyone will say "give it time" or "you're gaining muscle" or whatever...I don't wanna hear it :D I wanna see the results and I'm so ready to see some inches starting to come off of my body! 

I know it's all a mind thing for me for now! I know it didn't take 2 weeks to gain this weight and it won't take 2 weeks to take it off!! Patience!!!! That's what I need and I don't seem to have it...not anymore! ;) I'm almost finished with phase 1. I've got 2 weeks left and it'll be time for me to roll into phase 2 of LFT. So, no more scales for me. I took a pic of a sundress that's pretty snug on me now. That's my motivation so that by the end of the 12 weeks it'll fit...nicely! It'll be spring by the time I'm done with LFT so I'm gonna put that dress on again on April 6, 2014!! See, now I"m starting to get excited and I'm starting to feel I can do this!!! So let's git 'r DONE!!!!

I'm out!!

Day 38 Clean...Day 10 LivingFit

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Just me making the best of my day at work!! :D I've been frustrated at work since the beginning of the New Year, but I just grin and bear it for the most part. Shoot, I'm not doing anything illegal, so I gotta do what I gotta do to keep my job...and my sanity!!

Today there were these teenage boys in the gym...omg!!! They would do a machine, then sit and talk or text, then they'd do another round of machines, then do the same thing again!! Good grief!!! I had to ask one of 'em "Are you finished with the lat machine?!?!" LOL!! Well, he got his butt off and I was able to finish up my workout. It took a bit longer than expected, but boy oh boy were my arms feelin' SWOLE!!! :-D I'm planning to do a week 2 wrap up on Sunday and I'll post it under the LiveFit Challenge tab...so watch out...cause here I come!!! :-)

Thursday Wrapup

Today, overall, was a good day!! One thing I've gotta keep in mind is that stress is gonna make it so much harder to get the weight off! So, regardless of what's going on at work, my "stress relievin'" workout sessions are gonna be just that...stress reliever!!! I started taking a multivitamin, bcaa, and fish oil today, so I'm hoping that'll be an added benefit to my (clears my throat) "inch"loss (instead of weightloss). I'm so sick and tired of the scale...Ugh!! And knowing that weightlifting can add weight before the pounds start coming off, I got get more focused on clothes fitting rather than scale decreasing!! 

So that's all...yep, I'm still getting caught up on SOA (sons of anarchy). I'm gonna try to hit the gym in the morning to avoid those boys hoggin' up the machines tomorrow :D...but knowing me, I won't get my butt up early enough ;)

Good night!!

Day 37-Gettin' my butt in gear!!!

I bought some vitamins from www.bodybuilding.com to help me out with Jamie Eason's LiveFit 12 week trainer workout. The BCAA (branch chain amino acids) help maintain muscle mass while crating a calorie deficit. They also reduce the rate of protein breakdown by decreasing activity components. In other words, the help keep muscle instead of losing it. The Opti-Women vitamin is a multivitamin with a whole lotta good things in it; vitamin A, B12, C, D, E, K, biotin, and other healthy vitamins like dong quai and chasteberry. I bought it because it has allllllllll the things I'm looking for in a vitamin without me having to buy a lotta different types of vitamins. So I have high expectations. I'll post later to see how I'm liking it or not liking it!!

I finally did my food prep for the rest of the week. There's only 3 days left so I only prepped 3 containers...chicken breasts, sweet potatoes, and mixed veggies. 

For dinner tonight was leftover turkey 'loaf and a sweet potato. I didn't wanna eat what I cooked for meal prep, so I decided to just eat leftovers and call it a day!! Looks good huh? Yeah, I think so too!! ;)

A Good Day!!

Overall, today was a good eating day. I didn't cheat and I didn't do any over the top snacking. I wasn't hungry, but of course, I had that "empty" feeling in my tummy. But I drank a ton of water and it seemed to help with that feeling. I'm not sure how to keep that feeling from happening, but I gotta do something YIKES!!

Well, I'm gonna get back to watching Sons of Anarchy on Netflix! 

Until tomorrow....

Day 36- Martin Luther King Jr Day

We had the day off today in observance of MLK Day! I wish there were more things in my area to participate in for this day, but it's limited. I spent some time with my cousin, Fuzz, hanging out for lunch and for a movie (Ride Along...very hilarious!)

I had 2 slices of whole wheat toast with a drizzle of honey, applesauce cup and a green smoothie...yeah, it looks brown, but that's because I put whey protein in it :D It was pretty good but it didn't really fill me up for breakfast. So I drank about 3 cups of water to help fill me up before I hung out with my cousin for the day.

Lunch was Dragonfire chicken (I think that's what it was called) from TGIFridays. Yes, it was unclean, but it was about 600cals. Chicken breast, jasmin rice, mandarin oranges, and a side of broccoli. I didn't intend to eat the whole thing, but the conversation with my cousin was so interesting that I didn't realize I ate it all until it was gone!!! :D :D :D After lunch we went to the movies and then we chatted for a while. Then I came home to meal prep for the rest of the week, but I decided to wait until tomorrow. 

So, overall, today was an AWESOME day!!!

Day 35

Ok, I went grocery shopping today to prepare for my meal prep for the week. Actually I'm gonna do my meal preppin' tomorrow since I have the day off due to the MLK holiday. But tonight's dinner was turkey meatloaf with mixed veggies. I used chopped spinach, bead crumbs, applesauce, and some spices in the 'loaf. the veggies were the Normandy blend which has broccoli, cauliflower, zucchini, squash and carrots. Again, I just used some seasoning to spice it up! I was gonna steam some sweet potatoes,  but I decided to do them when I do my meal prep tomorrow. I've gotta go to the grocery store to get a bag because where I went today only had the big ones and I'd rather have small ones to spread out throughout the week. 

I bought a bag of frozen chicken which had about 10 pieces. I'm going to bake a couple and cut some into strips so I can add some variety in my meals. When I bake some of the chicken I think I'll use the stock to boil my brown rice...that is, if I decide to do brown rice this week. I think the think I don't like about brown rice is the texture...ugh!!! I've been tryin' to find a way to make it better tastin', but I haven't found anything yet. So for me to get a starchy veggie, I opt to eat beans or corn...even though everyone says corn is not the best decision as a veggie...but corn is soooo doggone good!!!

Well, that's it fo today....there isn't too much to post. I'm gonna try my best to get better about taking pics of my meals and posting 'em!!

Shoot, 35 days is a huge accomplishment...so I'm gonna keep it going and going and going and make this a lifestyle change!

Until tomorow...